Hope For The Hopeless.

Hopelessness is a feeling that I have been struggling with these last few weeks.  Not just in my own life, but in the lives of the people around me.


I feel hopeless on how to deal with people from back home, I am not physically able to be there for them, I can't be that shoulder to lean on.

I feel hopeless when I wake up every morning and face the reality of the hard day ahead of me.

I feel hopeless on what I'm surrounded by everyday, whether that be cruel group mates, overly-flirtatious classmates, or empty friendships.

I feel hopeless when all I want to do is call that one person, and I'm not able to contact them.



The pastor, at the church I attend here in Kentucky, said something, this past Sunday, that gave me a little perspective.

"There are no hopeless situations; there are only people who have grown hopeless about them."

And he is absolutely right.  I have given up on this quarter, and that only makes it worse.

Now here is where I should put this inspirational message about how I found myself looking for the good in my day.  But I'm being honest.  This week has been really hard.  I have come home every day and have just broken down.  I've cried because of exhaustion, frustration, loneliness, or just because that's the only way to express how I feel.  I can not attribute it to any one thing, but just the weight of it all.  And I know I am not the only one who is having this issue, it may not be all of the same causes, but we all go through this all some point in time.  It seems endless.

I'm going to be motivational for a moment and say it does end.  I haven't hit the end of it yet.  I'm still in the thick of it all, but one day, maybe tomorrow, maybe Saturday, maybe in a month it will be better.

Until then, I keep having to remind myself that no matter how lost, overwhelmed, or alone I feel, God is always there.  Making my day better in ways I don't always appreciate.

I'm not able to call my best friend or my boyfriend right now, which is hard, but He gave me my mother.  Who has been wonderfully understanding over the last few days, letting me cry, on the phone with her, for hours.

I am surrounded by people in school who try and destroy things that I have worked hard for, and one person who shows me unwanted attention.  God gave me a caring and understanding chef, who watches out for me and has my best interest at heart.

So I'm not hopeful right now.  But I can not be completely hopeless when I have God.

As Psalm 62: 5 says;

"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from him."

And Isaiah 46: 4;

"Even to your old age and gray hairs; I am he, I am he who will sustain you.
I have made you and I will carry you;  I will sustain you and I will rescue you."

My hope will come back to full strength some day, and He will sustain me until then, rescue me if I fall, and carry me when I just can't go on anymore.  So I do not have to be okay right now, or tomorrow, or everyday.  I just have to be okay in the knowledge that He is here and He is watching out for me when I am too tired to do it for myself.

And He can (and will) do that for you.

So let God be your hope when you are hopeless.